I am a Seed

I am a seed

Not yet planted

If given the chance, I could bloom

Instead, I’ve been beaten and stomped on

Mocked and belittled

Told that I would never amount to anything

That I was a mistake

That I was unplanned

I never fit in with the other plants at the greenhouse

They mocked me because I did not look or act like them

The other plants never invited me to grow with them

I grew in solitude

No one wanted to be my friend

I was a depressed seed that just needed some care

I was scared to be planted for fear of not looking good enough

Anxiety overtook my thoughts

They laughed because I never bloomed

But I was not given what I needed

I did not have extravagant petals or leaves

I never had what the other plants had

I had second hand sun with weeds surrounding me

I was thrown in rocks expecting to grow

Plants cannot grow unless they get sunlight and water

The environment that they grow in is just as important

You need soil to support you as well

My support was not my father

See, he was one of the plants

That plant made me feel less than

I had to find a different support

I looked to the teacher plants

In them I found some hope

As a young seed, they were my only friends

I am grateful for them

I believe in The Light that provides everything I need

And that is not okay with the other plants

The other plants have only their opinions

And everyone’s opinions matter until it is mine

I was never really listened to and often overlooked

Everyday my thoughts try and get the best of me

My brain tries to take me captive

Lies of not measuring up to the other plants

Thoughts of never growing

Beliefs that I am a burden to the soil around me

I wonder if I will ever bloom

Thoughts that are not helpful

I know where my help comes from

I can grow if I rely on that Light

My environment was not positive

I did not have many friends

I was made fun of by most plants

This does not have to ruin my perspective

Does not have to ruin my growth

See, I can bloom, and I will

I just need time

I have shown this in recent years

A bud has formed

Though people mock the way it looks

I see great hope in it

This bud will become a flower

That flower will bring happiness and joy

It will be beautiful and loved

That flower just needs time to grow

This flower needs to first be a seed

Yes, I am a seed

But I am blooming and will be beautiful

Though my environment was not suitable

I have shown great promise

Because I was never alone

When I felt weak, I had Hope

That Hope helped me grow

And now nothing can stop me

I may be a seed

But I will become a sunflower

I will bring joy to people around me

Show them the Hope that brought me here

I am a seed

But I am blooming