When I Admitted Myself to the ER for Near Suicide Attempt
2021 did not start off great for me to be honest. It started with a trip to the ER which then meant I got sent to a mental health facility. (TRIGGER WARNING) I admitted myself because I saw how scared my friends and family were. The night before (January 2nd), I looked up how many of each of my pills I had to take to OD. I had a plan to just get the "job done" by taking all of them at once. Something made me text my friend in the other room and she came in and stopped me (God intervening). It was a traumatic night. I had been on the edge of a cliff before, but I had never taken one foot off like that. My friends stayed in there with me for the rest of the night. When we got back to Indiana the next day, I fed myself and then got driven to the ER by two of my friends. Oh yeah, did I mention that in the midst of all this I was having a great time in Atlanta with some of my best friends? Why did this happen now? Satan was using every opportunity to tell me I was unloved and alon...